6:05 p.m. 2005-05-15
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in my popculture/literature class we talked about superman being so insanely cool in part because of his ability to fly which gives him unlimited mobility. now i was really never a huge fan of the ability to fly (i think it probably had something to do with my immense fear of heights) but after a week of being horendously bored and emotional i finally realized the cause of my woes: THE FACT THAT I HAVE NO MOBILITY AT ALL.
my sister has "our" car, my dad has his all day and my mom has hers... i have no car and truthfully even if i did have a car i can not think of more than two places to go in it. i miss walking around campus and knowing that (aside from groceries) everything that i could possibly need was a walk away.
i hate having to check in and take other people's schedules into consideration every time that i want to do anything at all. plus, i can't go grocery shopping and i never get the chance to just cook myself dinner (i always loved cooking myself dinner). i just feel like i'm sufforcating under this huge cloud if grossness that is constantly hanging over my family.
i started thinking about all of this when sean left this afternoon. he came to celebrate our one year anniversary and he totally saved me for about 24 hours. we walked, talked, went to see robots, and just had a lot of fun. regardless of how happy i was that he was here, i was so upset when he left- partly because i don't know when i'll get to see him again and partly because i was just so jealous of the fact that he's driving back to bg and he's in a play, taking classes, and just being independent. i miss mine so much.
so horrah for being in a year long relationship and having a boyfriend who drove three hours, through the rain (in a car without windshield wipers) to come and see me on our anniversary.
