6:18 a.m. 2004-03-28
nothing comes from nothing- nothing ever could
lately i've been wondering a lot about what makes me view a situation differently than everyone else. there are times when i can place this difference on my entire life of catholic schooling. i can almost guarantee that teachers like mrs. gitner (kindergarten teacher), mrs. paisley (elementary gym teacher), mrs. gettig (middle school music teacher), and mrs. prebish (sophomore english teacher and official "make jessica experience self-doubt whenever possible" crew head) did a number on my psyche that some of the kids here will never understand.
but then i think that i'm still so different from my friends from home. even though we for the most part exerienced the same kind of education: which was how we spent the majority of our awake hours from the ages of 6-18. so the key must be in my family. right? but even alyssa and i seem to be complete opposites when it comes to most topics that we discuss.
i guess that is where most people would turn to biology- but i just can't believe that so much of who a person is can be determined before he or she is even born. and so, once again, i find myself at a stand still.
not that that is a bad thing at all, in fact i should probably make that point clear: IN NO WAY AM I UPSET ABOUT THESE DIFERENCES, and i'm not trying to group the whole world into a category that is one way and i'm the only one who is different. i guess i just wonder why there are so many times when i feel so alone.
